Abuse happens all the time too, like binge drinking at college parties or off-label prescription drug use. Lest you wish to argue semantics, the last bastion of denial, allow me to clear up the differences between addiction, dependence and abuse.ĭependence occurs in hospitals all the time when a person is put on morphine for pain control and then experiences withdrawal symptoms when taken off. That gift, that opportunity to open further into life, is gone. When it’s most important for you to be present and consciously participate in your own evolution, instead you’ll drive to the mall or take that hit, pop that pill or find that boy (or girl) to get with. If you don’t address the issue you will end up slowly sabotaging your happiness and the happiness of those around you. If you are struggling with a process addiction, like food or sex, you probably aren’t in danger of waking up in the ER tomorrow, or not waking up at all. Maybe the consequences haven’t gotten this bad for you, and maybe they never will. My first thought was what did I do? My second thought was how do I get that gun so I can put myself out of my misery? Addiction defeated me. The last time, I woke up naked in the psych ward of the ER, my liver failing, an Ativan drip in my arm to keep me from banging my bruised face against the wall, and a cop guarding me. Another time my dealer actually revived me with CPR and a shot of Naloxone in my leg after I stopped breathing. Once I woke up in the ER on life support. I was so afraid and ashamed that I just kept pushing my problem into the back of my mind, year after year, praying for a miracle or death, whichever would come first. What I didn’t want to accept was the fact that the solution could only be found by facing my worst fear, which in this case, was getting clean and confronting my despair. I believed that my addictions were not the problem but rather symptoms of the problem, and I used that rationalization to keep looking in other directions for a solution. In retrospect I see that I was relying on their ignorance because my addiction was the last thing that I wanted to look at. I sat at the feet of great teachers who were amazing, but they did not understand addiction. I would nod out in the self-help section of the independent bookstore. I ordered the quinoa and steamed vegetables and then left to shoot up in the bathroom. I wanted authentic relationships but I kept a hundred secrets from you. Shots of wheatgrass in the morning and shots of vodka in the afternoon. I was the guy in your yoga class sweating alcohol from every pore. Drawing a new line and crossing that one too. Right now you’re wondering why you keep breaking these promises to yourself-day after day-drawing a line in the sand and crossing it. Right now you don’t think addiction is a gift. ![]() To send a flower arrangement or to plant trees in memory ofĬraig Edward Walker, please click here to visit our Sympathy Store.Addiction can defeat you, and be your greatest gift. You are encouraged to sign Craig’s guest book at under his obituary. Memorials are suggested to the American Heart Association in Craig's memory. Step-sons, Coleman McNett of Lebanon, MO and children, Zoe McNett, Haleigh Kula, and CJ McNett, Nora Tramelīrothers, Kirk Walker of Grand Island, NEĬraig is preceded in death by his parents, Edward and Sharon Walker. Step-daughter, Callie Kleeb (Dan Mace) of Grand Island, NE and son, Oliver Thomas HE enjoyed watching Star Trek and loved his dogs, Brett and Chipper.Ĭraig is survived by his wife, Cindy Walker of Grand Island, NE He was a Husker fan as well as a Kansas City Royal’s fan. He was owner/technician at his company at the time of his death.Ĭraig’s job was a hobby to him. Craig established his IT business, AC Technology, with his partner, in 2005. The couple moved to Grand Island in 1999. ![]() ![]() He married Cynthia Moore on Jin Dodge City, KS. in Hastings, NE and later in Dodge City, KS. He was employed as technician at ServiTech, Inc. Craig continued his education at UNL completing his degree in IT at University of Nebraska – Kearney in 1988. He was raised in Grand Island and graduated from Grand Island Sr. Curran Funeral Chapel is assisting the family.Ĭraig was born, December 20, 1961, in Grand Island, NE, the son of Edward and Sharon (Palmer) Walker. Walker, 59, of Grand Island, NE, died unexpectedly, at his home, on Saturday, October 30, 2021.
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